More Ghosts From The Past
I hope you will forgive me for returning to this theme for a moment. As far back as I can remember I have had difficulties getting to sleep. My sleeping problems were thoroughly investigated in Germany, but no-one ever came to any useful conclusions. When I came to live in Britain our GP, a kind and loving old soul who was close to retirement, one day put his finger on the cause. He knew intuitively that my problem was a reflection of the wartime experiences of my childhood; I never doubted that he was right. As a child, I had been so afraid of dying in my sleep that the older I got the harder I found it to let go – without having the slightest idea why this was so. Yet, from where I stand now, it is not difficult to see how much difference even the simplest faith and the smallest prayer could have made. Some time ago, I heard someone pray: ‘If I die in my sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.’ This sounded strange to me at first, but now that I know the power of prayer, I wonder how much difference a plea like that would have made to my earlier life.
Alas, only through the lack or loss of something can we come to appreciate its true value. Clearly, my main lesson for this lifetime consisted of appreciating the importance of spiritual matters. It was worth the long struggle through the darkness of my ignorance to come out into the light of knowing. What a precious gift it is to know that: God and the Angels at all times take care of us and our world; without them there would be no life; whether we believe in them or not, they are there, guiding and protecting us through all our experiences; and no matter what befalls us, we shall always be safe.
Each year, as the Sun moves into Scorpio and 11th November and Poppy Day in Britain comes round once again, I like to hold a small private remembrance service for those who went before us. Sun in Scorpio is a time of year that presents everybody with opportunities for using the cleansing, purging and healing energy of this sign for own healing journey. Its energy was at work when the first inspiration for this new project came to me. It is likely that this is the reason why I suddenly felt it was necessary for me to look into and talk about how the war years affected me and my life. Read more about this in ‘The Sun in Scorpio’ in the Astro Files.
This part of the jottings by now has grown into a veritable mosaic of impressions. In the first place, it was written for myself, not in a selfish way but with the aim of fulfilling several purposes. As mentioned earlier, I hope that writing about my wartime experiences will enable me to let go of that part of my past by laying some of its worst shadows to rest. This is also an attempt at helping those around me towards a better understanding of what took place on the ground level of life in wartime Germany. Finally, there is the equally important part that focuses on some of the things those experiences taught me. That sometimes these parts weave into each other is inevitable.
As pointed out in volume one of these jottings, each one of us is on the Earth plane now to find healing and thereby become a healer in their own right. Everybody’s current lifetime offers many opportunities for working on this. Most helpful I find playing the role of an interested observer of my life rather than being a participant, or worse its victim. That changes everybody’s part to that of a victor. This is why I chose the Oscar Wilde quote from volume one: ‘To become the spectator of one’s own life is to escape the suffering of life.’ as the motto and main theme for all my writings.
Searching for and finding the higher purpose and meaning of any traumatic event helps to cleanse our consciousness of its memories and effects. This is of special significance now that the long-promised spiritual rebirth of humankind is finally taking place, and we and our world are at last moving towards more peaceful times. Each has to work on this, but how can people do so for as long as they still lack the awareness of what this existence in physicality really is all about? Yet, it is everybody’s birthright to wake up and come home into their true nature. This article is part of my contribution towards helping as many as possible to do that.
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This article is a chapter from ‘War And Peace Between Nations.
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‘War And Peace Between Nations’
